[appendix to the previous post]

I owe the box two for sorrow as of last night: I listened to "Moon River."

I think, too, that I need a stone for longing, and one, also, for failure.

I briefly considered an exchange rate between desire and failure--being allowed one failure per so many desires unindulged-in--but I think that's not quite fair. It is not an honor to failure, and failure should be respected, as well, just as much as desire, or faith. (I need no stone for faith: I have none.) There is no exchange rate. They are different animals.

Sorrow will be cherry amber; longing will be milk amber. Failure and success will be garnets. Large ones.

I owe the box two of each, actually.

Success, if I ever have any, will be green garnets, I think. Green garnets are extremely expensive, but I don't have many successes, not big ones, not green-garnet successes, so I imagine it will work out fine.

(Faith would be moonstones. So that you have to look at it carefully to see how beautiful it is.)

(Perhaps I should count small successes, too, so I can feel as though I am getting somewhere. Assignments completed, walks taken, chores done. I suppose those, too, could be the sodalite, since doing what you don't want to do feels pretty much exactly the same as not doing what you do want.)